Sudden Aversion Towards Your Music
Let’s go through a complex topic that hits pretty much any musician at one point, which is when they suddenly develop a total dislike towards their music. This commonly happens towards music that people usually work on, but it could also happen with music they released (made) in the past. In both cases, this is caused by the same few points that I will discuss in this article and propose some solutions to ease the tension this can cause.
Is aversion towards your music a writer’s block?
Not exactly, but they’re often connected.
Writer’s block typically refers to the inability to create, while aversion to your music is more about losing connection or affection for something already made. One can trigger the other, but they’re not the same beast.
What Is Writer’s Block?
Writer’s block is the psychological state in which a creator—a writer, musician, or artist—cannot start or continue creative work despite wanting to. It’s not a lack of ideas per se but a disconnect between intention and execution.
Common definitions include:
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The mental state of being creatively paralyzed.
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A psychological inhibition prevents the production of new work.
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A cognitive or emotional barrier that disrupts the flow of ideas.
How They’re Related
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Aversion → Writer’s Block
When you lose faith in your current music, it can lead to avoidance. You hesitate to open your DAW, fearing that anything new will be “just as bad.” -
Writer’s Block → Aversion
When you’re blocked and nothing sounds good, your existing tracks can start to feel like reminders of failure, creating a feedback loop of negativity. -
Common Root: Self-Judgment
Both often come from internal criticism, fear of imperfection, or loss of creative play. You’re evaluating instead of exploring.
Let’s break it down.
The Brain Is Wired for Novelty
When you first start a track, your brain is stimulated by newness. Sounds feel fresh, and ideas flow. But repeated exposure leads to desensitization—you stop hearing the magic. This is known as hedonic adaptation: what once felt exciting now feels bland simply because it’s no longer new. When I make music, I’m always looking for new ideas and by searching through loops, samples and jamming, I will encounter multiple sounds that make me think I want to make a song with it. I’ve come to understand that with time, my music production comes in phases and that I would rather slow down the process by isolating each phase, where I work on one task at a time.
If you’re a regular reader of this blog, you know that one of my focuses on production aims to make sure artists break the emotional entanglement towards their art and be more neutral towards how the songs are. The issue with emotional attachment comes with these thoughts:
- “This is the song that will make me known.” Giving the song importance, purpose and a destiny before it is done.
- Having a strong first impression of the song. If the artist always develops a music appreciation that they easily like and understand, it will make them more prone to simple ideas. The issue with these is that you might get fed up with them faster.
A lot of successful electronic music is also quite simple. Simplicity is an art, often accomplished in grace/flow. It was created quickly, and it worked. The issue with these songs is that you can’t go over the details over and over to fix things, as this will ruin the initial spontaneous effort.
This is when I also share a mode with producers who have mastered that way of working, which I call a Spike, inspired by the Agile System.
If working in non-linear mode makes you move through phases, taking breaks between songs and starting a new one to the point where you forget about the previous songs you made, a Spike is more about finding an idea and then quickly shifting it in a mockup, acting as fast as you can. Working fast and putting all doubts, while not aiming for perfection, is another way to counter the novelty envy and bottling down your ideas to move on. Usually, the main challenges people have when they’re doing a spike are:
- Having an idea but not knowing what is missing.
- Feeling limited by the sounds selected.
- I didn’t know how to arrange the idea into a song.
These challenges usually stall you in the loop stage, where you play ad nauseum the hook you found and end up overexposing yourself to your sounds. This will likely tire you out, while your song has nothing wrong. When you work in Spike mode, you trust the process of having some adjustments later, and you focus on what you can do with what you have. This is also called working in layers, as you put down your main layers and have the option of adding what can emerge in a future session.
Focus: Taking distance from your ideas will be the right judge of their true potential.
New tastes, New influences
I think it’s in any musician’s best interest to appreciate multiple genres. One can’t bring anything new to a genre if they’re not getting inspiration from elsewhere. Imagine you grow up in the countryside and are only exposed to country bluegrass music; it might take a huge opening of your mind to discover new things, and once you do, you might have problems identifying social cues. What I mean by social cues are the ability to pinpoint what works in a song or what will please an audience. Label owners, for instance, have this internal radar for musical social cues because they’re in tune with the market, their audience and perceive the ups and downs of the label’s releases.
Being open to various music genres creates a general understanding of these cues, or the common patterns used within and across multiple genres. This is how the guys behind the Maurizio project translated the essence of Dub into making a new genre named Dub Techno in the early 90s. It was audacious, and it worked flawlessly. Honourable mentions were made to The Orb, who combined multiple genres, influences, and ideas in the same way, creating a genre that has taken over chill-out rooms.
The downside of venturing into different aesthetics or falling in love with a specific kind of track that one wants to emulate, you might have a hard time achieving it, which results into 2 issues:
- Achieving the tasks halfway, creating something that is not you, with a technical level that fails to meet the reference. The results will be easy to dislike.
- Creating a writer’s block where one doesn’t know the nature of the sounds, freezing in front of how to start.
In the face of new directions and challenges, you have more chances to dislike the music you make. This is common with newcomers to music making, especially people who have been DJs. They’ll know what quality music is and will be impatient with their own development.
In the spirit of using my non-linear approach, I always recommend consolidating your skills slowly and moving on. If you overtake a task that implies no use of the skills you have and requires a new definition of how you work, it will be harsh. I would encourage you to always start with a basis of what you know how to do and build on that, as a solid basis. This will ensure that you have one part of your exploration with elements you love and make room for new ideas that are in progress. Again, this is one reason I encourage using premade samples and loops. It’s to ensure that whatever you do has this basis of certainty, where you can add uncertainty.
Perfectionism Creeps In
As the track evolves, so do your expectations. You start comparing it to your favourite artists or your past work. The “inspired you” made the track; the “critical you” now evaluates it. And that inner critic is never easy to please. That good old internal critic is always trying to save your honour by finding all the faults, missing out on some essential points:
- The typical listener to your music will listen to it 1-2 times, not finding the issues you’re hunting.
- Imperfections are not what the listener pays attention to.
- Some issues, if minor, might be interpreted as an artistic intention/decision.
- Nothing is perfect, no matter how much you search for.
Perfectionism is something I could write an entire post about. It is an issue in many spheres of our lives and can cause mental health issues if not addressed. Some use the term OCD lightly, but that is a serious illness that requires intervention from a healthcare provider. The only thing one can do to address if it stops you from doing what you’re supposed to do is to go through the points I shared and perhaps print them, post them on your desk.
One advantage I shared earlier about working in layers or doing a spike is that you force yourself to be in the writer’s position and then you can revise later.
Don’t think about making art, just get it done. Let everyone else decide if it’s good or bad, whether they love it or hate it. While they are deciding, make even more art. (Andy Warhol)
While you can’t reach perfection, that doesn’t mean you overlook issues. You can fix the obvious and let go of arbitrary things.
Tip: Separate creation from evaluation. Don’t mix these phases. Write first. Judge later. (analogy: right/left brain)
Emotional Projection
Sometimes, it’s not even about the music. You might associate the track with your mood during its creation—frustration, stress, loneliness. When you revisit it, you unconsciously relive that emotional state. This is the same for anyone you ask for feedback about your music; they might not be in the right state of mind to provide proper feedback. A critical point about putting an idea quickly in song form is to capture the intention and mood you had at the very moment of creating the song. While it’s important to take distance to judge the potential of the song, sometimes you won’t be able to jump back into the project because your emotional state has completely shifted from where you were. Making music under any influence can cause this issue, where you’ll feel a disconnection between where you were when you made the song and where you are when sober. It’s not always making sense.
I like to say that I see my songs as a statement or a Polaroid snapshot of where I was at a specific moment in my life:
- My tastes.
- My mood.
- My influences.
- My skills.
- A current finding.
Once I adopted this way of relating to my music, I tend to be less interested in changing anything since I make a lot of music. Compare it to posting pictures on Instagram, for instance. Imagine you want to constantly retouch past pictures you posted by removing a tree in the background or changing the colour of your t-shirt. Would that alter the intention and context of the moment you captured? How important would it be?
If you can take that approach to your music, you’ll feel more at peace with whatever you create and see it as a milestone, with its flaws, innocence, and soul.
Tip: Change your environment when working. Pair each track with a fresh mindset and clear intention.
Your Skills Evolve
You might dislike your track because you’ve improved. What sounded “good enough” two weeks ago now feels amateurish because your standards have moved up. That’s a good sign. I don’t like to finish my tracks, which always surprises people. My goal is always to aim for a level of completion of 90%. I like to finish my songs when I have a context of release. If a label approaches me to release an EP, I’ll go into my folder of unfinished tracks, pick the ones that would match the label’s direction, tweak them, mix them, and share them. This approach allows me to review specific technical issues I didn’t know how to fix when making the song or perhaps change something I didn’t realize wasn’t working. Sometimes I show the music as is to the label and we both decide of the micro changes. It always works better.
With this mindset, I can trust that my future-me will have the wisdom and resources to do whatever needs to be done when I need to let go of the song to the outside world. I teach new producers this mindset, encouraging them to say “that problem is already fixed, but in the future,” for anything that seems like a decision to take or a technical challenge. What is important to fix in the here and now is more about articulating the hook/idea and selecting elements to support it, to the best they can do.
We always evolve. Each song I make, I try to learn something new or practice a new approach. Something learned can then be applied to past projects, but if you always follow the same recipe and routine, you’re not training your future-you to make better decisions later on.
Tip: Instead of trashing it, freeze the track as a snapshot of your progress. It’s a milestone, not a mistake.